So Halloween for me was a okay. I didn’t end up going to LA and spending it with Margo and Nae. So that sucked. Vincent was worked basically all day, so I was alone. Haa

It also happened again today, waiting for him to come home. Currently watching Ocean’s Eleven. Thats it. I thought about it, and yeah I feel real bored and lonely. I smell too, I haven’t showered. Haa

Well thats all to update. Oh yeah! I decided to not right anything too personal, so I bought myself a little journal. Again I said, I like writing, oh yeah.

So today was not a good day. I’m overwhelmed with stress. I know that i’m not doing to well in my classes. Sigh, college is hard. Well, universities, haaa. I’m not used to doing all of this homework. I feel so bad because I get my boyfriend to do some of them either. Oh  my. I have a loving a boyfriend.

I decided to join tumblr because I like to release my thoughts. I don’t really like to talk it out. I’d rather type, or write. Therefore, haa…here I am.

I’m currently sitting on my couch in our apartment, just blogging. Vincent’s doing the dishes, and I’m just thinking. I’m thinking about my future plans. Okay, well I here we are in Riverside. The plan is for us to live here, and start a life together. I’m supposed to go for 8 years and become a general practice doctor, and was to strive to be a pasty chef (which I’m very happy about). But its only been a month that we’ve been away from LA, and I terribly homesick! Still! I mean what is wrong with me? Here I am, with a great, no perfect boyfriend, in our spacious apartment, and going to a prestigious university. But I’m not satisfied. I miss my family, I miss my friends. I know it may seem like I’m whining, and I’m not grateful. But I am, I am! I feel greatly blessed. But UCR is strenuous. It feels like all I do is study, and finish homework, then receive some more! I feel lame. College is not how I made it seem. I talked to Vincent about it, and he’s behind me. I called my dad, and he said the same. So, when it all goes down. It is all up to me, just me.

Should I re-plan my future? Should I wait it out more? Or should I toughen up and stop being a baby?

I do miss my dad, and my brother. I miss Margo and Nae.

Sigh, I need to sleep on this.

-God Bless